Yes. It is. Some have said it's happened to Javert.
Sometimes I wonder if that's a mercy or not.
[Ryou takes another sip, letting that hang for a moment.]
Here, we make connections to try and get through the agony of our existence here, and then our connections are the very thing that's ripped from our grip. It's all transient--it can all go to hell, no matter how you feel about it.
[He's trying to sound flat, but his voice still has pain in it, pain he can't push down and away to sound objective. Ryou cannot be objective right now. Not only is he miserable, he's still tipsy and the alcohol hasn't had a chance to properly run its course.]
Even if it doesn't, the bonds we make can be used against us. Or used against those important to us.
In the end...looking after others just means you'll disappoint them.
[He almost feels bad that he's being this way. But it's hard not to focus on the bad when he'd basically been told, to his face, that he'll never be better. He'll always suffer, because he always draws the worst to himself.]
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Sometimes I wonder if that's a mercy or not.
[Ryou takes another sip, letting that hang for a moment.]
Here, we make connections to try and get through the agony of our existence here, and then our connections are the very thing that's ripped from our grip. It's all transient--it can all go to hell, no matter how you feel about it.
[He's trying to sound flat, but his voice still has pain in it, pain he can't push down and away to sound objective. Ryou cannot be objective right now. Not only is he miserable, he's still tipsy and the alcohol hasn't had a chance to properly run its course.]
Even if it doesn't, the bonds we make can be used against us. Or used against those important to us.
In the end...looking after others just means you'll disappoint them.
[He almost feels bad that he's being this way. But it's hard not to focus on the bad when he'd basically been told, to his face, that he'll never be better. He'll always suffer, because he always draws the worst to himself.]