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[Tawna debates briefly how much she even wants to lay on Steven right now. The man is dealing with enough. He is her friend though, so she tries to be honest enough.]

Crash and I have a complicated history to some degree. Same for the house he brought here. He loves it there and I have mixed feelings.

I didn't really go into a lot about my past before, I guess.

Oh, no, you don't have to. If it's complicated, it's complicated. Never really chatted that much about my own past either, did I?

But if you do want to get it off your chest, I'll listen.

Fair is fair, we'll have to talk pasts whenever you wanna share about yours though, its probably better if I get this out here. Crash and I have been together for a good while here and it will eventually come up whenever you meet Crash.

Crash and I are from different universes. We met each other due to some evil scientists' attempts to destroy every universe. It was a thing. In these parallel universes we both knew a different version of each other. We dated the other original versions way back when. Crash and his Tawna broke it off for mutual reasons.

My Crash, and his sister well. They died. I couldn't protect them.

Now the Crash here and I are dating. We're figuring out how we fit together.

[Oh. Uhhhh... Oh.]

That sounds like a lot. I'm really sorry about the Crash from your own universe. That must've been very painful.

This probably isn't my place to say, but... If you're still figuring out how you fit together, why are you already dating? Did you at least start out as friends first?

It can still be painful sometimes, but, I have it under control.

We were friends first, yes. It's more... no couple is perfect, you know? There are always more things to learn about each other.

We just have shared but different experiences.

Right, yeah. That makes sense. Just so long as you're sure you're dating him for him, and vice versa. Not because he reminds you of the Crash you lost.

[Meanwhile, he's thinking of Layla, wondering whether maybe she only kissed him because he's like a nicer, gentler version of Marc. And whether maybe he only had feelings for her because... he's a nicer, gentler version of Marc.]

Yeah, its him for him. The two of them are pretty different to be honest.

The only thing I ever worry about is when we get out of here. He's a homebody, I'm... not.

And you know, different universes.

I can see how that'd complicate everything by a mile. Maybe if we find a way to get out of here, you could go back with him to his universe?

I know Crash. He'd want to stay on Wumpa Islands. While I really can't do that anymore.

I need to travel. Being in one space drives me a little crazy.

That sounds like a problem to tackle when you get to it. If you get to it. If you start worrying about that sort of thing already, you're just giving yourself grief over something hypothetical.

[Lord knows that if he were to do the same line of thinking with himself and Quentin, he'd hit a dead end immediately. Sorting through feelings is hard enough without the additional factor of 'this can't ever work outside Ryslig'.]

Yeah. For now its hypothetical. Doesn't mean I don't think about it sometimes.

I know Crash wants to go back to Coco. I wouldn't deny him that ever. Even if I'm not in that picture.

All the more reason to enjoy the time you have with him here, then.

You are enjoying it, right?

I do enjoy it.

Still. I know there are some things we don't see eye to eye on. I've moved on so much in my life from the island we used to live on. He's still in that mindset. I can't quite quiet my thoughts down about what if and what will be.

I suppose that sort of thing takes time?

I'm sorry, I wish I could be more helpful, but I don't know much about this stuff. Dating or alternate universes. I just want you to be happy.

Yeah, I suppose so. I'm just... not able to stop myself from thinking about it.

You're helping me, Steven. Its nice to have someone else to talk about it with. Crash and I have some shared experiences, but not exactly the same?

Sometimes I think he wants something different from me. For me to be more like her maybe?

Oh, that's no good. Because you're not her. Experiences and environment shape people a lot. If you don't feel comfortable being more like her, you shouldn't do it.

Did you try talking to him about that? Just chat it through?

The two of them broke up mutually, for a similar reason I'm worrying about. She wanted to see the world, he didn't. That's another thing on my mind sometimes.

I'm not her, but I'm some variation of her. Its always going to be there, along with our shared history.

I'm not sure where to start. Crash is just... very forgiving and accepting? He won't really press on a topic much. If it seems rough, neither of us want to approach it. Crash is a good guy, and I'm really not that good.

Bleh. This is sure a conversation alright.

[Steven can't stop himself from thinking about Layla again. It's not the same thing, he knows that, but... God, this is why he said he doesn't know much about dating.]

So if they broke up because they didn't really mesh very well, and you're some variation of her with the exact same reason for not meshing...

That sounds real complicated.

It does sound like the sort of thing to talk to him about though. Even if he doesn't like confrontation, if he's really that forgiving and accepting, the conversation should go well shouldn't it?

Complicated is about the best word for it honestly.

Yeah, it should. I just, I'm just having a time realizing I might not be very good for him and vice versa.

I'm sorry.

I can't really give you good advice on what to do with that, but I'll be around to listen. And dangle distractions in front of you if you need them. But for now, you ought to just go over there and see how it goes.

Hey, being here is enough. It gave me something to think over. I've been in some part trying to not think too deeply about some parts. Not a great thing, obviously.

When things are settled, he and I will talk it out.

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